square peg in a round hole

//05OCT07/23:07/LOUNGE*ROOM//
//MOOD: REFLECTIVE//

just a pilgrim & a sojourner here;
from a kingdom far & yet, so near.
& a stay as brief as candle light;
until the rising son & morning bright -
will show a different way to walk.

so it’s encounterfest once again. and judah smith is here preaching again. challenging – again. and I wonder, is this the way it’s always going to be? a fire lit, then a fire gone out...

I feel like a square peg trying so hard to fit into a round hole. there is a longing, an ache inside – it’s physical in its intensity. this need for something more than this life – something more than what I see, hear, touch, taste and smell. this discontentment that causes me to rage against the smallness of my life.

where do I belong? this pilgrimage I am on – where is it going to? what is my purpose, my design? will I be great/significant/poured out – or will I live my life forever in the shadows of mediocrity and disappointment?

tonight, judah was challenging encounterfest about our point of view – challenged us not to be so limited in vision, but rather to believe that God desires all men to be saved; and then challenged all of us to do something about it. the challenge is to look up, look out, look beyond ourselves and see that every other person we encounter/walk by/walk past/walk beyond is a life that is precious to God. 6 billion people. 6 billion different lives, different fears/tears/hopes/dreams/longings...6 billion hearts. 6 billion voices that will never fade from the hearing of the eternal ears of God.